In the new semester, I came to the second library for the first time in a long time.
The faint expectation that I wouldn’t have to use this place when I was in the second grade was shattered. After all, nothing changed from the time of the year. I want a friend.
I went to the back of the bookshelf to see if Nekura was there, but no one was there.
I crouched down in the back space and sighed as I smelled the moldy paper.
I was even a class representative. I don’t want people.
I was a little worried that this might be bullying. However, if everyone dislikes it, it seems that there were other children whose companions wanted to be Sakura-kun’s class representative, so I negate the idea that it is not bullying.
When I touched the spine of the book with my fingers meaninglessly, I heard the sound of the door. I can hear a small sigh and know that I am a boy student. Perhaps I thought, and raised my face.
“Nekura-kun? I! Hilia!”
I talked to him with great force, but I wonder if he was wrong. As soon as I was anxious, I heard a “hit” and a few seconds later I heard a small voice, “It’s been a while …”.
Nekura didn’t want to come here even after seeing him for the first time in a long time, and as soon as he entered, he seemed to sit on the other side of the bookshelf where I was. As usual, he doesn’t try to show up. But it’s easier for me to talk.
“That’s a monster pretend … Is that a monster pretend?”
After courageous confirmation, after a long and long silence, he answered that he did not intend to do so. Wow, wow. I am … I am …
“I’m sorry … I think I’m a funny person …”
“No, I’m glad you thought so.”
“I’m sorry. It was fun.”
When I said that, I heard a small exhaling sound over there.
“Is it okay with humans today?”
Nekura said that, so I laughed and answered, “Today, the human version.” It’s fun to talk playfully, but I also want to talk normally.
“I don’t have any friends … I don’t think I can do it in a new class.”
“Well, is that so?”
Surprisingly, a so-called reaction came back.
“If you have friends, you won’t come here during breaks.”
“That’s right … no, actually I … I don’t have any friends.”
“Nekura-kun too? That’s right!”
I was delighted with a sense of companionship, even though it was nothing to be happy about.
“Hiria-chan is bright and I think I can do it soon …”
“I’m so shy …”
“I couldn’t talk to me from the beginning.”
“That’s because … Nekura was easy to talk to …”
I shook off from the start and played around with it, so I didn’t have time to get acquainted with it. It may have been good that we couldn’t see each other’s faces.
Besides, even if I speak normally, I can talk in his gentle way without being nervous.
“Nekura-kun is a very nice person …”
“No, I’m … garbage … I’m not good at talking …”
“That’s not true!”
Poorly having no friends must have made him completely subservient. I understand how you feel.
I can’t see my face anyway, and my name is unknown. He seems to get along well, and he can tell stories that he can’t tell.
“It was decided by the committee that I was with a prominent person … I feel hated.”
“What is the committee … No, no. That’s right. Hiria-chan seems to be easy to talk to.”
“It may be paranoid, but I can’t even look at it at all, and I can’t even have a conversation.”
“That’s a terrible guy!”
“Do you think so? I thought it was because of my mind, but usually I don’t do that …”
“Such a corresponding guy is a waste! He has a bad personality!”
“Hey, that person … nothing.”
General Sakura is relatively famous. I thought I’d give it a name, but I didn’t tell him the grade or class, so I stopped. I don’t want the flow to reveal my identity. I don’t feel like it’s okay to know my name and face.
Nekura is a boy, regardless of girls.
I’m not unpopular, but I’m only liked by this strange thing since I entered school. On the other hand, honorifics are used by people who are matomo and are avoided.
It may be repelled by a matomo person like Nekura.
Besides, I’m pretty famous because I have an older sister who is a celebrity, and it’s a nuisance if it becomes a rumor, so it’s hard to go to the class anyway when I get acquainted.
I don’t bother to reveal my identity. I don’t think I’ll lie, but at least I won’t touch it anymore.
“… Hiria-chan, can I ask?”
After all, Nekura said that he was thinking that it was related to his identity, while he was thinking about it through the bookshelf.
“I don’t think I have this opportunity … I’ll be brave enough to ask.”
“… What do you think is a popular man?”
“No, no! Nothing!”
“Nekura-kun, do you want to be popular?”
I don’t have any friends? First of all, aren’t you friends? I swallowed the line. The priority is selfish.
“No, I don’t really want to be popular, but … I don’t usually talk to girls … I’d like to ask for reference.”
After all, I think I want to be popular.
No, I want to be popular with high school boys. You can’t want to be popular. It’s kind of cute. Nekura-kun.
I laughed unintentionally, but there was no reaction over there, so I withdrew. should not. I have to think seriously about a man who is popular.
A popular man. Thinking about it, General Sakura of the same class suddenly came to my mind. However, he is tall, has a good face and style, has excellent grades, can exercise, and has a mysterious sex appeal and atmosphere. That doesn’t seem to be a property that can be referred to by the general public.
But I didn’t know any other samples.
“Hey, the people in my class are popular … I have a nice face …”
“Oh, it’s not about how it looks, it’s about the inside. It can’t be helped …”
“Oh, that’s right! I’m sorry!”
I may have said something terrible. I don’t know Nekura’s face, but if I was confident, I wouldn’t be hiding.
I regret that it was an unfriendly statement. It’s kind of like a person who thinks about his appearance as soon as he hears that he’s popular.
This rant is the one who remembers before going to bed and says “Wow idiot!” It’s embarrassing. I’m sorry. I can’t be crushed.
“Well, people who are popular … people who are popular … uh … well, I’ve been at a girls’ school until junior high school … that …”
“Oh, oh, don’t think too hard …”
I realize that my taste is not very common. Maybe I should give a general answer here.
“Well … a kind person?”
“… No, after all ?!”
“Wow, I don’t know … in general? Is that so?”
“That … is that so?”
Somehow, I wasn’t confident in both sides and didn’t feel much fruit. There is no spread, no discovery. It feels like I’ve made a useless statement. But I can’t help it because I don’t know. I’m not a popular man. Let’s ask my dad next time.
But for the time being, Nekura is a good person. I have to encourage you.
“Nekura-kun, I’m fine. There are people who will surely understand the goodness of Nekura-kun!”
In fact, if I am General Sakura and Nekura, I will choose Nekura without hesitation. I can’t say that because it seems weird.
“I really think Nekura can make friends and girlfriend soon!”
“Haha … that’s impossible … but thank you.”
I felt warmth in my voice with a bitter smile.
“Ah, but hey! We’re friends! You see, I’ve already made friends! … hahaha …”
Oh, I think I got too sick. No matter how much you don’t show your face, don’t give your name, you don’t have any friends. There isn’t …
I’m sweating strangely. Should I say “What!” When I was in agony, I heard the sound of breathing on the other side.
“Well, friends, are you okay? Because I’m such a shit, I’m a fucking bastard who isn’t popular, and I can’t even show my face … Will you be a friend of Hiria-chan ?!”
“Of course! Such a face and name have nothing to do with the essence of human beings! I enjoy talking to Nekura!”
Nekura shut up again.
I feel like I’m just saying strange things and I’m thrilled.
Eventually, after a longer silence, he nasally said “Thank you” and we became friends.