There was a small creaking noise on the floor, and when I raised my face, Saionji-san stood in front of me and looked at me vaguely.
I should have been talking to Hiria-chan, but when did she come in?
But she just called me “Nekura-kun” in Hiria-chan’s voice.
Realistic answers gradually come up. I think it’s a lie.
But this is probably the case.
I know it on the surface, but I can’t understand it. I felt like something I shouldn’t understand for some reason, and my thoughts froze there for a while.
I don’t know how long I was silently facing each other. Both of them were silent, staring at each other enthusiastically, forgetting to refrain from looking at something that was not human.
No matter how much I thought about it, no matter how much time passed, the reality did not come.
Eventually, Saionji’s small, well-shaped lips move like trembling and make a sound.
“What did you want to do when you lied about not having friends or being popular?”
“What a lie …”
“Because Sakura is a friend! And I’m talking to a girl … what?”
“Maybe I was making fun of knowing that I didn’t have any friends …”
“Well, calmly think about what you’ve been up to. If you knew …”
“Noisy! Noisy! It’s terrible!”
I’m excited and have blood on my head. I wanted to calm down, but I still couldn’t recognize the reality, and I was in a panic state as good as I could.
“It’s a lie … I don’t like it!”
I was told that while spilling tears, and my chest hurt.
“Terrible … why is that …”
Saionji wiped his tears with his arm.
While crying, I went back to the other side of the bookshelf. And while I was stunned, I heard a small sound of the door closing. Still, I still can’t move.
The room was full of silence. Alone, left there. Until a while ago, Hiria was talking to me with a laugh. It is still unacceptable that it was lost in an instant.
Why did she suddenly come here?
Saionji-san is Hiria-chan.
I can’t keep up with the facts that suddenly appeared.
Saionji-san is Hiria-chan.
No matter how many times I sing it, it doesn’t look right.
To be honest, I didn’t think that was the only thing. At a fairly early stage, it was a matter of course to rule out the possibility.
If I saw Saionji-san enter the second library, I didn’t think he was Hiria-chan. You might have wondered if you had something to do.
The voices that I thought were similar seemed to be the same when I heard them again. However, Saionji-san, who talks to me, and Hiria-chan, who talks to Nekura, have different voice temperatures and laughed better than anything else. The nickname of the Ice Princess doesn’t look like it.
In my head, various events up to now are complicated.
Similar voice. Gorilla notepad. The person who lost contact after the summer vacation. Friends in other classes.
When I think about it now, there were some things that matched. However, I just thought that it would never be the case.
Hiria-chan is Saionji-san.
I thought I could love any girl there. However, what I felt after actually seeing it was completely different from what I expected.
When I think about it now, I’ve always unconsciously imagined that I’m closer to myself, or more specifically, expecting something below me. A little inferior to other people who are not confident and love me even if they are boring. That is why they accept me. I put an idol that suits me on her.
Appearance is not so cute. I’m shy and I can’t talk to people well. So I don’t have any friends.
I was inferior to other people, so I was wondering if they would accept the parts that were inferior to my own.
I sat there stunned and was still there even when the sun went down and it became dim. My head doesn’t work.
There was a crow crying outside.
I vaguely imagined a crow flying through the autumn sky.
I no longer receive frequent emails. Of course, I never meet at that place.
Saionji became cold as soon as he knew I was, and as soon as I knew she was, I couldn’t speak normally.
This is what it means to meet face to face and know the name.
If you don’t know it at all, it may be accepted as it is, but if you know it, two people will be born there.
No matter how much you like your inner side, forgive your heart, and think that you can stay the same, the reality is that you give priority to the substance of your name and face, and adjust your consciousness to that.
Creatures with only consciousness are killed by the entity.
I will never see Hiria-chan again.
Both Nekra and Hillia were easily killed.
By none other than themselves.
Saionji was angry with me.
What kind of person did she expect? Only she knows it.
But I was certain that it wasn’t me.
Speaking of me, as time went on, it became strangely calm.
I was thinking quietly in my head all the time.
About that child who suddenly couldn’t meet.
Then, about Mr. Saionji.
Saionji has no friends.
She was always imposing alone. That’s why I never saw Saionji-san alone as a “child without friends.”
I never thought she cares about it.
Saionji doesn’t laugh.
It just didn’t have a chance to laugh.
She laughs so often that she laughs at her own laughter, and then the principal laughs just by pointing out the bean paste on her mouth.
Wearing a tattered jersey and walking.
A roaring voice saying that he made friends.
Her appearance called by Saotome-san.
In my head, Hiria’s bright laughter reminded me of passing by.